..late saturday/early sunday thoughts..

- Of course, first: Happy mother's day! Not only to my mom, but to my grandma and my awesome sister and aunt's AND to the mothers of my friends whom I love like my own. I look up to you all so much.

Moving on...

- Obviously I have separation anxiety. My best friend has been on vacation for a week now I am scratching my eyes out. I hate when people leave. I think it has to do with every single person that I get close to and really trust... moves away. And with this particular instance, it is even worse because he is planning on moving there. So him being there right now just made it that much more real. I'm not ashamed or too proud to say that it kind of turned me into a mess. Yeah, everyone has talked about it. All the time. And I "pretend" to throw a fit about it and be mad. That "anger" is hiding more hurt than you know. To make it worse, it's not just one friend. It's my best boy friend. My best girl friend. And 3 or 4 other good friends. All at the same time. I can't guarantee I won't have a minor melt down when it happens. Just saying.

- Part of the way for me to handle people leaving is to push them away before they move. Be prepared for that. I'll try not to do it but I can't promise anything. Don't let me.

- I also can't guarantee I won't try everything I can to get you guys to stay. Including all the statistics of how many people got killed in LA in the last year. And how expensive it is. I'll be doing research.

- Haha. Even though I just bitched about everyone leaving me (the irony is that its okay for me to leave you, just not you to leave me), I fully plan by this time next year living in Washington. I want to work in Seattle. Maybe not LIVE right in Seattle, but I want to live in Washington. I always have. So I'm really going to pull myself together this year and get there. It's an experience that I think I need to have in my life while I'm young.

- I may have a Tylenol PM addiction. I'm currently seeking help.

- I also like Vicodin when it makes my legs fall asleep.

- I LOVE Cody Jensen. I can't even explain how happy I am to have him back around. He is amazing. That's all.

- I want my effing iPhone (ROBBIE!)

- How much do I love $1200 checks every two weeks? Seriously. Its amazing that I'm actually making good money right now. This may turn me into a workaholic. And I'm okay with that.

- Cherry Soda? OMG amazing. Bad for me? Yehhhhhhh. Meh meh meh.

I apologize for the randomness of this post. I'm (shocking) starting to feel the Tylenol PM. Hehe.