- My birthday was a success. I had 12 parties and celebrated with pretty much everyone that I wanted to. My mom bought me the cutest boots everrrrrrrr (thank god for Torrid and their boots that actually fit my calves (thank you dancing for 15 years and being fat)). I got the first season of Glee from Aaron and Matty Ford annndddddd lots of things to feed my current (and ongoing) musical theatre obsession. Yay birthdays! :)
- I have always considered myself to be well versed in the musical theatre genre. Recently I have found that there are people *cough, Tommy, cough* that are MUCH MORE in the know in terms of good shows and good music. So Mr. Fitz (aka - ToFi) has been "schooling" me in some of the shows he believes need to be on my radar. The first was The Last Five Years. Aaaaaamazing. Times a million. I have a slight obsession with this now. Jason Robert Brown is ridiculous. Leo Norbert Butz is phenomenal. And it gives me chills. I highly recommend it. The newest one that he has so generously shared with me is Next to Normal. Also extremely good. I had to sit and read the synopsis while I was listening to the music to figure out what the hell was going on (yeah. I'm cool. Embrace it), but lovvvveeeee it. Yeeeeeeey!
- I hate California. I believe that is all that needs to be said.
- I am feeling restless. Like I need to shake things up in a big way. I'm at a weird spot in my life right now. Things are in an awkward transition mode at work, my best friend just moved away, I am feeling terribly awful about myself physically. I just feel like I need to do something extreme. And that the universe has been sending me all these signals. I have half talked/half joked about moving to Seattle in March when my lease is up. Well I have had literally 4 people tell me in the last few months that if I ever decided that I wanted to move there, that they know tons of people that would give me a job in a heartbeat. And just with the way everything is going at work and in my personal life, I think maybe it's time to say now or never. I know it's going to be scary and I may hate it and turn right around and come back... but I need some independence. I need to stop defining myself by the people around me. I need to make my own way and figure out where I want to be and who I want to be. And I don't feel like I can do that here... Which may be silly or selfish, but that's the point I'm at right now. So... stay tuned to see what happens with that. Now or never.
Boop.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
..happy mybirthdaymonth!..
Updates!
- October is my favorite month. Of course, my birthday might be a huge part of that, but I just love the feeling when the air changes. When the leaves change and you can just feel that fall is in full swing. Plus, it's Halloween time! Carving pumpkins, Frightmares, scary movies. Fall just makes me happy. x100000.
- Speaking of my birthday, I like to celebrate me. I don't usually ever try to make the focus about me other parts of the year, but my birthday is the time when I like to be the center of attention and make everyone dote on me. And not just on my birthDAY, but in my birthWEEK and birthMONTH. Luckily, I have amazing friends who have no problem doing this...except for stupid Aaron who steals my thunder ;-)
- My birthday is on National Coming Out of the Closet Day. Hmm... Weird coincidence? Or fate? Hard to say. Love my gays!
- Speaking of gays, these last few days have been rough. It's hard to hear all the ignorant words that people speak just because they believe differently. Because they LOVE differently than other people believe they should. Are people really that simple minded? To believe that your way of doing things is the ONLY way of doing things? I was reading the article regarding what was said in one of the talks by Boyd K. Packer on Sunday:
"Some suppose that they were preset and cannot overcome what they feel are inborn tendencies toward the impure and the unnatural," he said. "Not so. Why would our Heavenly Father do that to anyone?"
I think it is highly arrogant that anyone, regardless of your 'status' in the church (or anywhere else for that matter), can assume they know what the ultimate "plan" was. Yes, originally, man and woman were made for each other. To create all of us. However, how does anyone know that there weren't other people "chosen" to live this way, that were BORN this way, to love someone of the same sex? To teach all of us tolerance and acceptance and love without judgement? If you have faith in a higher being, then wouldn't you believe that? That He knows what He is doing? I feel any judgements that we pass on people while we are living will come back around to us in the end of things. So just love. There is already enough hate in the world.
Soap box done.
- I would like someone to take me on a shopping spree. You may sign up here.
- Josh is already blowing the roof off of California. He's been there just a little over a week, and already has two commercials and a spot on a tv show lined up. I feel like this is proving that he is meant to be there. As much as I dislike him being so far away. He's driven and motivated and I know that you'll be seeing his name everywhere shortly.
- Kind of along the same lines, my boss came to me the other day and was like "So have you found something to feel that void since your friend left?" (my boss is awesome BTW) I thought about it a little bit and while I miss him a lot, this is kind of a test of independence for me. This last year I have spent getting the toxic things out of my life was hard, but I had Josh (and of course, other friends) there to back me up and tell me I was doing the right things. And now this is my test to see if I can do it myself. And considering recent circumstances and situations, that test is hitting full force right about now. This will be a good chance to see if I really have changed over the last year, or if I'm going to fall into old habits. I am fairly confident that I have, but only time will tell.
Have a good week :)
- October is my favorite month. Of course, my birthday might be a huge part of that, but I just love the feeling when the air changes. When the leaves change and you can just feel that fall is in full swing. Plus, it's Halloween time! Carving pumpkins, Frightmares, scary movies. Fall just makes me happy. x100000.
- Speaking of my birthday, I like to celebrate me. I don't usually ever try to make the focus about me other parts of the year, but my birthday is the time when I like to be the center of attention and make everyone dote on me. And not just on my birthDAY, but in my birthWEEK and birthMONTH. Luckily, I have amazing friends who have no problem doing this...except for stupid Aaron who steals my thunder ;-)
- My birthday is on National Coming Out of the Closet Day. Hmm... Weird coincidence? Or fate? Hard to say. Love my gays!
- Speaking of gays, these last few days have been rough. It's hard to hear all the ignorant words that people speak just because they believe differently. Because they LOVE differently than other people believe they should. Are people really that simple minded? To believe that your way of doing things is the ONLY way of doing things? I was reading the article regarding what was said in one of the talks by Boyd K. Packer on Sunday:
"Some suppose that they were preset and cannot overcome what they feel are inborn tendencies toward the impure and the unnatural," he said. "Not so. Why would our Heavenly Father do that to anyone?"
I think it is highly arrogant that anyone, regardless of your 'status' in the church (or anywhere else for that matter), can assume they know what the ultimate "plan" was. Yes, originally, man and woman were made for each other. To create all of us. However, how does anyone know that there weren't other people "chosen" to live this way, that were BORN this way, to love someone of the same sex? To teach all of us tolerance and acceptance and love without judgement? If you have faith in a higher being, then wouldn't you believe that? That He knows what He is doing? I feel any judgements that we pass on people while we are living will come back around to us in the end of things. So just love. There is already enough hate in the world.
Soap box done.
- I would like someone to take me on a shopping spree. You may sign up here.
- Josh is already blowing the roof off of California. He's been there just a little over a week, and already has two commercials and a spot on a tv show lined up. I feel like this is proving that he is meant to be there. As much as I dislike him being so far away. He's driven and motivated and I know that you'll be seeing his name everywhere shortly.
- Kind of along the same lines, my boss came to me the other day and was like "So have you found something to feel that void since your friend left?" (my boss is awesome BTW) I thought about it a little bit and while I miss him a lot, this is kind of a test of independence for me. This last year I have spent getting the toxic things out of my life was hard, but I had Josh (and of course, other friends) there to back me up and tell me I was doing the right things. And now this is my test to see if I can do it myself. And considering recent circumstances and situations, that test is hitting full force right about now. This will be a good chance to see if I really have changed over the last year, or if I'm going to fall into old habits. I am fairly confident that I have, but only time will tell.
Have a good week :)
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